drama drama drama

So as some of you have picked up on, I was dating someone, and now that dating is over. sigh. It was fun and beautiful and lovely, and now it is over. Did I start dating too soon after my marriage ended? probably. Did I get advice from lots of people not to? you bet. And did I listen to my head or my heart? yeah, hearts do a great job of shutting up heads sometimes.

So the last few days while I've been wallowing in sadness and self-pity and loneliness, I've gone back to an old habit, TV. Specifically, I've been watching episodes of Grey's Anatomy online. Watching a bunch of ridiculously attractive people having crazier drama than me...not a terrible way to numb out.

And, of course, while watching my brain candy, there were things that spoke to me, and I had to write them down. I seriously have little scraps of paper in my bedroom with quote scrawl. am I hopeless? probably.

The quotes:
"Is it better to be alone and feel like a success, or be in a relationship and feel like a failure?"

"Do you know how to walk away? Do you know when not to take less than you deserve?"

"The thing about addiction is, it never ends well. Because eventually, whatever it is that was getting us high, stops feeling good, and starts to hurt. Still, they say you don’t kick the bad habit till you hit rock bottom. But how do you know when you’re there? Because no matter how badly a thing is hurting us, sometimes, letting it go hurts more."

"The truth is painful. Deep down, nobody wants to hear it, especially when it hits close to home. Sometimes we tell the truth because the truth is all we have to give. Sometimes we tell the truth because we need to say it out loud to hear it for ourselves. And sometimes we tell the truth because we just can't help ourselves. Sometimes, we tell them because we owe them at least that much."

"No matter how hard we try, No matter how good our intentions, We are going to make mistakes. We are going to hurt people. We are going to get hurt."

"In some ways we grow up; we have families… we get married, divorced… but for the most part we still have the same problems that we did when we were fifteen. No matter how much we grow taller, grow older, we are still forever stumbling… forever wondering, forever… young."

I'm out of brain candy now. Lucky for me, I've got a jam-packed day of back-to-back meetings from 9am-6:30pm tomorrow. whee! :) That's one way to keep the brain occupied. And now that I'm back from retreat, I'll get to go back to one of my little selfish jennie habits, my solo friday nights. Friday nights are for bollywood movies and samosas and spicy pickle and lots of other delightful treats. Yay for Fridays...almost there.